wore I wore + a little secret

hey guys! here we are on this blessed wednesday! how's everyone's week going so far?

Since it's scorching hot outside, my silly little friend took the following photos of me for what i wore today inside! Nothing too spectacular as I had to prepare to go to the imaging office to have a mammogram done!

No earrings. No bracelets. No deodorant (which is a MUST on any other day!).

I didn't want to say anything about the pain in my boob and my upcoming appointment today, because i didn't anyone to worry over something that probably didn't even need worrying about. My mom was so right! Plus, I felt like if I talked about it, it would just drive me to more worry.

WHAT!!? no deodorant!

If you've been reading, you may remember that I've been complaining some days in the past couple weeks of not feeling too well. Mostly, the not feeling well has been pain I've been experiencing in my right boob. For the past three weeks it's been subtle and gnawing and just there..I've taken a ton of naproxen(aleve) to help dull the uncomfortable pain.

I told my primary doctor a couple weeks ago and he referred me to have the mammogram which appointment was today. Because of wheelchair and physical logistics of the machine and my boobs ya know,we were unable to do the procedure, but we sure did try! Thankfully, the tech took me into a room to have an ultrasound done because as I learned, when there is not one specific point of pain or evidence of a lump, the ultrasound is the first way to go. Before the tech let me leave, she took the images to the radiologist. He read them and didn't see a tumor or anything concrete. He even said that I didn't really need to go through w/the mammo if I didn't want to.

The mammo tech ladies (2 of them) were so warm and friendly and willing to help try to do the mammo. They said that it's quite common for younger women (in their 20's and 30's) to have this kind of pain and that it could be due to hormones or intake of caffeine, or for no known reason! Well! I definitely think it could be that my hormones are outta whack! and well, I do consume alot of caffeine on a daily basis...HELLO COFFEE! So, Brittany is going to start to wean herself off the coffee. Oh dear God, help me! I know I can do it!

It actually comes at a perfect time to start not drinking coffee. But i mean, i like certain teas and chocolate too! One thing at a time! So tomorrow, instead of one full cup o coffee, I'll try only half a cup and then from then on, maybe skip one morning and then the next until I am free of my addiction! I do not want to keep taking naproxen everyday 1-2times because taking that stuff long-term is so NOT good for my kidneys! Slowly but surely, change is a comin'!

I'd just like to thank my Father in Heaven for letting things be ok and that I do not have a cancerous tumor. Breast cancer doesn't run in my family, but other kinds of cancer do. You can imagine my slight concern when after 3 days in a row of pain in my upper boob toward my armpit was aching and not going away. Happy we got it checked out and no need to worry anymore, i can breathe- thanks mom :) I am at a bit more peace.

Philippians 4:6-7

Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.  If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. 

He took care of me.

someone that I used to know

Do you know what Vitiligo is?
No. It's not some Italian dessert, though it does sound like a fancy, sweet Italian word lol.

It's often known as the skin problem Michael Jackson had. Well, I have it too.

Vitiligo is a skin condition/auto-immune disorder (as I understand, in case most doctors don't even know what causes it) in which the skin loses its pigment. As a result of not producing melanin (which gives skin its pigment), one ends up with white patches or spots on their body.

My white spots were first discovered about five years ago by my caregiver chila one night a few months after I moved here. The spots were small, like the size of rice or marker dots underneath my thighs. Since then, the spots have joined together to make large patches! It's gone from under my legs/thighs to my chest and shoulders (this area has been most affected), to my right arm, left hand and even my face. Because of this reason, I wear capped sleeved tee shirts under tank tops or spaghetti strapped tops/dresses for my skin will burn so easily! I literally have no pigment on my shoulders to help protect from sunburn. I get like, OUCH red, itchy, bumpy sunburn!
No me gusta!

Again, this is another reason why I advocate to EVERYONE (whether or not they are tanned or have all of their pigment) to wear sunscreen!Protect your skin! Isn't it the largest organ we posses!? I seriously have, "I dont want to get skin cancer" burned (no-pun intended) in my mind! Also, who really wants pre-mature age spots or wrinkly skin?! Not me!

So anyways, in my younger days, even up to 3 years ago, I used to be wayyyyy more vain. When I could visibly see my skin changing within months, I (mostly) accepted it and handled it fine until...(keep reading). I was just thankful that it wasn't painful! I used to tell myself, "as long as it doesn't go to my face. that probably won't happen. it's only on my legs and chest. please don't go to my face."

haha, well guess what? Miss-who-cares-so-much-about-her-face-i-mean-thats-what-everyone-immediately-sees, was in for a lesson. Sure enough, two new small white patches appeared on my face! First one to happen was above my right eye at the hairline and the other on my chin. And to top if off, my hair was turning white, like a huge patch near the crown. Man, i felt like an old lady.

I've been to the dermatologist to address this issue and was given a special cream to use on those skin spots. I tried it for a short time because I ended up having a reaction to the product and wasn't really noticing a difference anyway, so i stopped using it. I learned that I wasn't THAT vain because I really didn't care to try those other treatments that might or might not work.

So, seriously, at first, I was more upset about it occuring on my face. At least i am light complected! That definitely helps. Most people that saw me never even noticed unless I pointed out the two spots! They'd say, "Oh britt, you can cover them up with makeup. use makeup to make them darker."

"haha are you kidding? I don't want to look like a cheetah!", is what I'd say. In reality, using shades darker to to try to "hide" the white spots was going to make those areas more noticeable. I cried and became slightly depressed because of this changing my outward appearance! We as women, especially in our society, place so much value on our physical beauty. I was definitely feeling the pressure of something I could not control.

I just didn't want to have another problem.
I just didn't want to have to worry about something else.
I just wanted the spots to blend in.
I didn't like these changes. 
And change, my friends, is something that is guaranteed in life.
Ultimately, I've just continued using the same shade of foundation or tinted moisturizer all over my face and letting my true colors show! ha! :)

Miss Vain became someone that I used to know.  I'm so glad that I accepted those spots years ago. I am so used to them. They don't bother me anymore. Really, what could I do? I threw my hands up and gave my worries to God. Worry and stress would certainly not stop the process from happening, only possibly, make it progress.

The only thing I do and have been doing is use a bit of concealer to lessen the redness of the spots on my face, because they again, burn easily, even when using spf 50 sunscreen. And, I color my hair about every 6 weeks! ;)

I am Britt. I am spotted and I am beautiful.

To learn more about Vitiligo, you can read a bit about it on webmd.

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